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Category: My Weight Loss Journey

And the Weight Loss Struggle Continues…

…but I’m finally in the right head space for it!  It’s been a long time coming, that mental (and almost audible) click that is the decision to lose weight.  How do I know this time things are different?  Because I’ve been here before, and the resolve is the same.  The last time I felt this certain, I adopted the habit of working out in the a.m., in addition to workouts with a personal trainer; that habit lasted for about 3 years. So let’s start with diet. During the tail end of 2017 I did a short stint of Keto dieting for about 3 weeks; I didn’t really know what I wanted to do so I fell back to a plan that forced boundaries, and that has produced great results for me in the past.  Throughout this run at Keto, I felt very heavy, even though I lost about 10 lbs.  I went off Keto at Christmas, and as I was trying to drop back into Keto in the new year (without much success), I was doing a lot of soul searching about what I really wanted out of my eating plan.  I wasn’t really sure that I wanted to do Keto again, although I didn’t rule it out at first.  While it worked really well for me; mentally, it’s a very tough diet for me to follow. Throughout all of my pondering, one thing became perfectly clear – in order to be successful in weight loss, and also sustainment, I needed a paradigm shift.  And then it occurred to me that I need to eat to live, not eat to lose weight; and Keto is a specialized plan to lose weight.  Don…

Getting Back to Working Out

I’ve recently starting working out again and it’s kicking my ass.  My return to the gym has made one thing very clear in my mind:  I am at the beginning again. It’s frustrating because I worked really hard to be fit and strong.  Over the span of 4 personal trainers and 10 years I’ve done countless lunges, an eternity of plank, and what feels like more crunches than there are stars.  Ok, I’m being facetious, but I was fit.  And now, to be back at the beginning really pisses me off. This epiphany has a silver lining, though.  This time around, I know what to do.  The question is, can I motivate myself to do it or should I hire help?  Right now, I’m inclined to say motivate myself.  First, I need to get back into the habit, both physically and mentally.  I know I need to set up a steady routine, and I need cardio conditioning.  It’ll enable the rest of the work – resistance or some form of weight bearing exercise.  Second, I’m over the dependency on a trainer; the mental motivation (a.k.a. sense of dread) on training day would hang over the entire day like a rain cloud, even with my favorite trainer.  At the moment, I’m just not into it.  I’ll reassess after summer is done. Speaking of…my plan is to focus on getting cardio conditioning back over the summer, and getting back into a morning workout routine. That means I’m going to enjoy a nicely air conditioned gym, lol.  Of course, I’ve awakened at 4:30 a.m. every morning this week, stressed out about going to…

My Weight Loss Journey: About False Starts

I really hate it when I have to start things over.  And so it goes with my weight loss efforts.  It seems like I’m always re-starting and I never reach my goal.  It’s an exercise in insanity, really.  And yet here I am again, having to admit to not following through on my declaration to lose weight last October.  I guess the decision to change wasn’t really a decision, it’s was just another false start in disguise.  I’ve had so many false starts; frankly, I’m pretty damned sick of them. I’m kind of an expert in weight loss and fitness.  After so many years, and so many times that I’ve lost weight, I know exactly what I need to do.  I just can’t seem to make the jump from intent, to action, to follow through.  Despite knowing the health risk I’ve placed myself in, it hasn’t been enough to motivate me to stay away from foods that aren’t good for me.  It hasn’t given me the gumption to get out of bed and start my day with a work out.  It’s because, while I know the big picture, I haven’t owned myself, and my results, enough to follow through. I hurt myself recently.  Seemingly out of the blue, I popped my IT band out of place and my hip has been bothering me A LOT since – walking is sometimes difficult.  It’s very frustrating for me because it makes me feel feeble, which I truly hate.  I don’t see it so much as the onset of age, but instead, it’s more evidence of…